Today I remember my Mom who lost her fight of ovarian cancer 23 years ago. I cannot believe that much time has passed. It sometimes seems like just yesterday as my memories of that time are so vivid in my mind. I cannot express how much she is missed, how much she has missed in our lives. She now has 3 grandchildren that she never got to hold. I often wonder if Caleb ever wonders where is Grampy Bob's other half. He has a Nana and Papa, but just a Grampy Bob. Someday he will know.
Every time I look at my boys, I have to sometimes squeeze them a little bit harder. I can't imagine having to say goodbye to them at any age, especially as a child. Becoming a mother has made me more emotional because the power of love is so much greater once you become one. I miss having her around to talk to. I wish she could meet my family. I hope she knows how much she is missed, loved and what a strong legacy she passed onto me.
I still fear being diagnosed with ovarian cancer sometime in my life. It's there and will always be. Not to say that another type of cancer won't strike me, or maybe I will get lucky and never have to suffer from any form, but I pay special attention to this type because its so hard to catch early. I just scheduled my annual checkup and requested the extra precautionary measures. Every year I hope for the best and enjoy my life as each day is precious. 33 years I have been fortunate. I just hope for another 40 so I can meet my grandchildren.
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Oh, Robin, I am in tears. It is so evident that your momma was a wonderful and loving woman and momma. I would have loved to have meet her too and I would have told her what an amazing daughter she has and how her daughter is strong, caring, loving, a wonderful wife and is one of the best mom's I have ever had the privelege of knowing, all you have to do is just watch her in action...a true joy to see!
I would also love to tell her that her daughter is continuing to fight your battle and she will never stop! Your legacy is so strong in her and you would be so proud!
I love you Robin! I can't imagine your feelings of loniness that only a momma can fill, but please know you are lifted up in prayer on this day (and always)! You truly are an inspiration and your mom has touched me in ways you may never know. I talk about ovarian cancer as often as I can, all b/c of your mom and her story that will forever be told through you!
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